It's over

So… life.

The reprap project is on the ropes: I spent a week cutting around getting 3.5 parts done. I have maybe 4-7 weeks left to finish it: the math just does not add up. My project partner is MIA, and Digikey is holding up my order for some reason, perhaps because I ordered a bunch of cable to be custom cut. At any rate, I still have some of the harder parts to cut ahead of me, and the homework is not going to let up from here to the end of school. I haven’t even started with the extruder, which is going to be a pain in the butt by all indications.

My god, this thing just isn’t going to live.

And while I’m trying to make this work, I’m ditching pretty much every other project that I’ve cared about; all the art, all the music, all the code. Maybe it’s just the late-night super-hot pho talking, but I’m despairing: not terribly hard, but it’s a notable local minimum.

Also, I’ve been rejected from almost every REU program I applied to. I’m not sure what I’m going to do this summer if this falls through: I was banking on getting a good REU (not just ‘any’ REU), so I haven’t looked into doing things elsewhere. What’s for certain is that I can’t let myself stay at home again (and my dad won’t let me just stay at home, either). Self-motivating is extremely difficult, even more so when I happen to be at home, which seems to introduce a whole new level of laziness. I just can’t let myself spend 2 months working on a single algorithm again…

Finally, all my applications for continuing my education are still up in the air.

I’m kind of stressed. My optimization mid-term also just got turned in today, and I need to get a perfect score on it if I want a reasonable chance at making a good score in the class.

Anyways, time to sleep it all off and start a new day.